bye bye 2006

this will be my last post for 2006. wohoo!!! konting oras na lang 2007 na. hay. im doomed! i have cough and colds. arrrggghhhh. kainis talaga. hindi ko alam kung bakit. may baon tuloy akong paputok sa pagpasok ng new year. harharhar. i was waiting for my mama. we are going to sanjuan, as usual. we are going to celebrate new year at my aunt's house. tagal nga ni mama eh.kanina pa aq naka prepare. naiinis na ko, panu maaabutan na kami ng putukan niyan sa labas. hay!!

2006. madaming magagandang bagay ang ngyari sa akin. marami ding hindi. madaming "revelations". at maraming trials and problems sa iba't ibang aspeto ng buhay q. kung nung 2005 maraming blessings ang dumating. masasabi ko din na marami pa ring blessings this year. madami akong natutunan. i can say na medyo nag-mature ako in some ways. pero marami pa ring imaturities. irresponsible pa din. tamd pa din. pero im planning na mabago ko na yun this coming 2007. tumatanda na din kasi ako eh. im turning 20 in july 10 2007. sweeett!!! can't wait for that. im really praying kay God na guide nya pa din ako palagi sa lahat ng decisions na gagawin ko sa buhay ko. alam ko hindi magiging masaya ang lahat kung wala si God. I love You, Lord. YOU really made my 2006 a blast. i really feel YOUR love for me. thank you for accepting me whole heartedly and thank you kasi tinanggal mo lahat ng hatred na nasa puso ko. alm ko po na alam NYO na kung ano yung sinasabi q. i'll do my best po na mas maging "radikal" pa aq para sa inyo. sobrang daming thank you po talaga sa napakraming blessings this year. sa mga bagong friends. sa mga best friends ko na nanjan pa din. mga different people from different walks of life. sa strenght na binibigay nyo sa akin. sorry kung minsan ang bilis kung bumigay sa mga problema dumadating. sorry po kung weak ak. i'll try to be not this 2007. thank you kasi naka-one year na kami ni "pa". thank you po for being the center of our relationship. thank you for loving us. thank you kasi nakkasurvive pa ako sa studies ko. sobrang nahihirapan po kasi talaga aq sa aspetong ito ng buhay ko. hay!!

marami pa akong gustong sabihin kaya lang aalis na kami ni mama. kainis talaga. bitin!! susubukan kong gumawa ng 1st post for 2007 bukas. haha.

ay, alam nio ba hindi ako nakapag parehistro. shyetness!!! sigurado kasing maraming tao sa city hall dahil last day na ng registration ngayon. sana ma-extend pa. gusto ko kasing bumoto eh. kahit hindi ko pa alam kung sino ang iboboto ko. hahaha.

~pa, i want to thank you for making my 2006 a wonderful year. you make my 2006 so CRAZY! and FUN! i enjoy spending this year with you. hanggang next year ulet. thank you for all the love and understanding.

basta, this coming 2007 isa lang hindi magbabago... "baliw pa din ako" at mas magiging baliw pa lalo. hahahaha. bye!!!
i love you so much pa!
mwah!

GODBLESS EVRYONE

HAVE A PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!

wish-a-wish-a-wish-wish-wish!

Dear Santa,

don't bother coming to our house this christmas. i have not been good this year. and besides we don't have a chimney in our house, so there's no way you can sneak and come by our house. and i think we're going to celebrate christmas at my auntie's house in san juan. so don't waste your time.

Love che.

p.s. but if you still insist and you think i've been good this year here's my christmas wishlist, hope you'll grant them all. i love you. ^_^

• digital camera. maybe canon or kodak. don't have any idea of what's the latest model. im not that techie. basta, gusto ko lang ng digicam para ma-capture ko every moment of my life.
• laptop. hahaha. just want to have a personal laptop.
• a pair of mickey mouse socks.
• lollipop. ung malaki. ung super hirap kainin. hahaha. basta, uso yun pag christmas.
• a nokia n-series cellphone. any of it.
• new pair of chucks (taylor).
• dress. haha. di ko lam kung bakit ko naisip 2.
• charmed dvd's (all season)
• a hug & kiss from meine liebe this christmas.
• candy mix.
• a mickey mouse t-shirt.
• my father. sana mabalot siya ni Santa for me.
• angel's breathe cologne.
• a new pair of iverson jersey for my kuya.

nalista ko na ba lahat. marami pa akong gusto, pero yan lang yung mga naisip ko sa ngayon. i know santa clause will not be able to grant any of my wish. who the heck is santa anyway?? boohoo che!!! you're not a kid anymore.

but really, i just wish everyone in this world to be happy this coming christmas. give love on christmas day.

merry christmas to all and advance happy new year!!!!

may God shower everyone of us His blessings.

i love you pa.
mwahhh.
Godbless.

HAPPY 49th BIRTHDAY PAPA!!

revelations

i'm sad. oo, malungkot ako. di ko alam kung bakit. namimiss ko ang pagtawa ng malakas. bored ako. i'm feeling kinda low this past few days. siguro kasi wala lang akong ginagawa sa bahay. walang kausap. and my lazy ass is getting bigger & bigger. you know why? coz i just sit & sit & sit. im so freakin tired. napagod ako ng walang ginagawa. siguro im tired of my daily routines. i want to do something different, something crazy maybe. wooshh. c'mon!! siguro masyado lang talaga akong tamad. kaya pati utak ko hindi gumagana. just hope that tomorow will be a different day. im going to my derma tomorrow. i was supposed to go today kaya lang umulan dito kaya tinamad akong umalis. just stayed at home. update my blog. watch the t.v. i watched charmed early this afternoon. studio 23 have this marathon from 3pm up to 6pm (ata?!). i was sooo happy. hindi talaga maalis ung attention ko dun. tas kanina first time ko nakapanood ng grey's anatomy. infairness, i like it. hahahaha. basta, gusto ko siya. at bukas makakapanood ulet ako ng charmed at grey's anatomy. yehey!!! *applause* ^_^

a funny story: i just finished eating my lunch. one of our cats entered the house, it's scrat. i was kinda observing him. everything that he's been doing. he slept, he woke up and do some stretching, he walked around the house, go to the bathroom to drink some water, slept again and woke up. he sat down w/ his cute eyes staring at our dining table, as if his planning to check whats for lunch. suddenly i asked him a question: "ming, hindi ka ba nabbored sa mga ginagawa mo, paulit-ulit lang kasi eh." to my surprise, he stared at me and answered my question w/ a very soft, "meow". then he slept again. isn't it weird???!!

i'm bad. really iam bad. i'm a bad daughter. it's my fathers bday tomorrow. i forgot about it. major amnesia na to. i was using the computer last nyt. my mom was talking to my cousin at the phone. suddenly i heard her saying: "tatawagan ko pa ng si uncle sam mo sa friday. birthday na niya. di man lang ako nakabili ng card." OMG! nanlaki ung mata ko. Boom!! bakit di ko naaalala un. hindi ko alam kung may memory gap lang ba talaga ako, or what!! it never happened in my entire life na nakalimutan ko yung bday ni papa. i was always the one reminding mama&kuya that it's papa's bday and that we should buy him a bday card. but this year was different. i was so shocked that i really forgot about it. it's kinda weird. che. you're bad! boohoo!! hindi ako makaisip ng dahilan kung bakit ko siya nakalimutan. o baka naman kasi hindi mo lang talaga inisip at inalala.

pa, texted me. they're on their way na to manila. yeheyyy!!! hindi ko siya nareplayan, wla na kasi akong load eh. but i already asked my mom, if she could give me and she said yes. sweeettt!! i'm gonna call him later before i go to sleep. i miss that freakin guy soo much. hahahaha! i miss his voice. i want to hug him tight. i miss pa. i miss being with him. i cant wait to see him. and i cant wait to hear his stories, his super witty stories. i miss his laugh. hahahahahahahahaha. to sum it all. i just really miss jermer cruz. im happy coz his coming home. and im happy that their trip to Bicol is succesful. Thank You Lord. sorry guys if i keep on mentioning jermer. forgive me, i just miss him. nagtataka nga ako eh. lately kasi parang masyado akong nag-ccrave kay pa. hahaha. ginawang pagkain c pa. what i mean is, i always wanted to be with him. alam ko na hindi pwede yung ganun. magiging boring na kasi eh. and ayaw ko naman na mangyari yun ganun sa amin. yung tipong maumay na kami sa isa' isa. gusto ko pa rin yung feeling na namimiss namin yung isa't isa. kaya okay na rin yung ganito. basta wag lang super tagal. hay! i'll stop it na. i'll control my emotion and my cravings for pa. hahahahaha. ang sagwa pakinggan.

i love you pa.
Godbless.

one and one month

13th month anniversary namin ni pa. ang weird. first time kasi na mangyari na hindi kami magkasama. ay hindi pla. ngyari na din yun before. uhm, paano ko ba explain. first time kasi na wala si pa. huh??!! hahaha. basta, ganito yon. nasa Bicol kasi ngayon si pa. may Gawad Kalinga project sila dun. tumutulong sila dun sa mga pamilya na nasalanta ng bagyong Raming. kaya di kami nagkita. pero okay lang. natuwa pa nga ako nung sinabi ni pa na pupunta sila dun eh. na-excite kasi ako for him. gustong gusto ko kasi makapunta ng Bicol. it's my moms hometown pero ni isang beses di pa ako nakakarating dun. nainggit tuloy ako kay pa. tas hindi lang sila pupunta dun to have fun. punta sila dun para makatulong sa ibang tao. hmmmm.

im happy, kahit na di kami nakapagcelebrate. hindi naman ganun ka-importante yun eh. ang importante is naalala niyo ung isa't isa. and nanjan lang ung love kahit magkalayo kayo. tsaka i know naman na God is always guiding our relationship no matter what. as what pa have said: "no mater wer am i & wer r u, my luv 4 u is d same. strong, defined, pure, and ol 4 u." "i pray 2 God dat He'll guide us werever we r. dat He'll bind our love strongly dat it can't b cut by any stuation. i love you so much ma. Godbless us always. mwahhh." ---awww. how sweeettt! i love you too pa. i'm happy to be your girlfriend. my love for will always be the same. sayo lang ako forever. i'm exclusively for you. hahaha. happy 13th month anniv.

i love you pa.
Godbless.
mwahhh.
^_^

exchange gifts.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS. BAMBIE JESSA YAP. ^_^

our former group, group 192. had our exchange gifts earlier this afternoon. yah! kaya lang hindi lahat nagpunta. tas ung iba umuwi na kaagad kaya hindi ko din sila nabati lahat. wala si hannah-toots. di nagpunta. tinamad siguro. wala na daw kasi siyang pasok. un pa. hay! ngustuhan ni vivian ung gift ko sa kanya. ang bango daw. c carla ung nakabunot sa akin. nagustuhan ko ung gift niya. di ko lam kung anu tawag dun. ung naffold siya tas pwedeng lagyan ng mga gamit. hahahaha. di ko ma-explain. birthday ni bambie ngayon. nanlibre siya sa mcdo. si ansley tuwang-tuwa sa gift ni shobe sa kanya, i-pod speaker. c rea naman xcited sa gift nya. undies. naiinis pa nga siya. kala niya kasi chocolate ung gift ni ansley sa kanya. ayaw niya kasi nun. gusto daw niya ung di nauubos ung pwede magamit. binigyan tuloy siya ni ansley ng panty from penshoppe. hahaha. sosyal!!!

na-miss ko ung former group ko. nakakatuwa kasi nagkita kita kami ulet hindi nga lang kami completo. hay. tapos na miss ko din ung barahan ni shobe, jc at ansley. nakakatuwa lang talaga.

buti na lang nagka-ilaw na d2 sa amin. kaninang umaga kasi wala eh. di ko alam kung bakit na naman ba. hay! wala akong magawa. as in. getting bored of this daily routine.

ciao.
i miss pa.
i love you pa.
Godbless.
mwahhh.
^_^

sleepy, sleepy me

im now wearing my pajamas. hahahaha. for a very, very long time, this is only the time that i've wear them (only had 2 pairs of it). ang lamig na kc. eh hindi pa naman ako sanay na nagkukumot pag natutulog, kaya nag pajamas ako. and im very happy while wearing it. i feel like i was a little child preparing to go to bed. hahaha.

today was so tiring, though i don't have that much activity. i went to school at around 9 am. it's our prelim in Rizal, hindi ako nag-aral. haha. i'm smart eh. boohoo che!! but really i didn't study. i just slept last night. tinatamad kasi ako eh, so kahit pilitin ko yung sarili ko na mag-aral la din ako ma-aabsorb. i just decided to study early this morning. kaya lang hindi din ako nagising ng maaga. sarap matulog. supeeeerrrrr lamig. how i wish katabi ko si pa sa pagtulog. sweeettt!!!! hahaha. kaya lang syempre di pa pwede yun. strict ang mga parents namin eh. hahaha. pro sna lang. haha. so aun nga, nag-aral na lang ako sa byahe. pro nagsisimula plang akong magbasa ng chapter 1 inaantok na naman ako. sleepyhead!! i can't help it. natulog na lang ako on my way to school. i thought nga i was late na. pro buti na lang hndi pa. sa tingin ko okay naman ung exam q. sana!! hahaha. before pla nag start ung exam nmin nakita ko pa si pa. yehey!!! he really wanted to talked to me daw. may sasabihin daw siya. tas aun nga, hindi daw matutuloy ung lakad namin bukas, cause he'll be going to Bicol. (oh c'mon, i envy him. gusto ko din magpnta dun) may GK activity sila dun. it's our 13 month anniv. bukas. it's our first for our 2nd year. woaahh. i'm sooo happy. really. kahit na hndi kami makkpag-celebrate ok lng. i really love that guy sooo much. he makes my heartbeats faster. every moment with him is sooo special. his smile (the cutest in the world), his touch, the way he makes "lambing", his hug, his kisss. hmmm. i really love it when we kiss. i really do. *big smile* ^___^ hahaha. it's like evrything stops when we kiss. simple, gentle and passionate. that's how i describe it. wahhh. i'm really in love with that guy. miss na kita kagad. umuwi ka agad ha.

after our exam, nagbbye na ako sa mga ka-grup q. i was happy kasi at least kahit papano nagkakasundo na yung grup nmin in some way. after nun, kasama ko na ulet c pa. nsa mcdo xa, kasma ung grupo niya. binigyan ko sila ng leakage sa Rizal exam nmin. haha. we have the same professor kasi for that subj. we stayed at mcdo up to 12pm. then after that nagpunta aq sa work ni joey. i gave him the cd's that his borrowing from me. i went to st. joseph parish (ata?!), mdyo nalulungkot kasi aq eh at that moment, so i prayed and after that i felt good na. God really loves me so much. tska pinagsindi ko dn candle sla pa, for their safetiness and success ng GK project nla sa Bicol. i just drop by and go back to school again. stayed at the E-lib while waiting for my handsome pa. visit his blog. open my friendster account and to my surprise, wla man lang akong message, testi or khit anong bago. pati sa mail q. hmm. nobody misses me. amfff.

when i got home i was really tired. mga 5pm na ata un. guess waht? naupo lang ako at napasandal sa aming upuan, nakatulog ako.. waahhh nakatulog na naman ako ng nakaupo at naka uniform pa ha. buti na lang wla c kuya, kundi asarin na naman ako nun. super sakit ng ulo ko eh. siguro dahil sa contacts q un. dunno. nagising kasi ako after 30mins. tas tinaggal ko contacts q. tas parang after a few minutes na lessen yung sakit ng ulo q. tas tinuloy q na yung pagtulog ko. natakot nga ako eh, bka kasi tumaas na naman grade ng mata q. waahhh. im blind!!! oh no!!. nagising ako kaninang mga 9. tpos kkdating lang nun ni mama. and she has pasalubong for me. yahooo.. chicken joy and yum burger (mas masarap sna kung cheese burger. wahaha!). late na kc pinauwi cna mama from work, kya di na xa nakaluto. kakatapos ko lang i-chew yung unang subo ko ng tumawag si pa. paalis na daw cla ng center. and they're going na to Bicol. tas tinuloy q na ung pagkain q. busog aq. super. Thank God! i like the episode of "maging sino ka man" today. ganda. cute ni john loyd and ganda ni bea. i wish i could be like her. and im currently watching princess hours, and im liking it. nakakatawa kc yung bida eh. un lang. dami activities. hahaha. that's all for now. antok na q. pero di muna aq ma22log. bka update q ung template ng blog q. hahaha.

ciao.
i love you pa.
mwahhh.
Godbless.
^_^

crack of dawn

*yawn* it's already 4 o'clock in the morning and i'm not yet sleeping. and i think hndi na talaga ako makakatulog pa. may duty na din kasi kami mamayan 8am. 6am ang call time namin sa my lrt monumento dhil babyahe pa kaming papuntang las pinas. i don't if i can last that long. parang ayaw na kasing magprocess ng utak ko. i'm praying na wag naman akong magkamali sa duty ko mamaya. presence of mind!! and confidence!! yan ang laging sinasabi ni pa sa akin.

enweiz, bkit nga ba gising pa ako at hndi nakatulog. i finish doing my EBN. it's our assignment in our duty. it was given to us last week pa. kaya lang naging lax na naman ako. kaya e2 napala ko. nag cram at puyat na naman. hmm. really need to change this kind of attitude. it's really not helping me. i've already said this w/ my other post, but still im not chnaging it. kaylangan ko pa siguro talaga ng focus and concentration sa mga ginagawa q. prioritization is the right word for it. prioritize ko lahat ng gagawin ko. from the most to the least. hay.

sobrang antok na talaga ako. buti nga tinxt ako ni pa kanina. medyo nagising ang diwa ko. and speaking of that txt. kagising-gising naman talaga yung na yun ni pa. nakakakaba naman kc yung ngyari. pinasok kasi ng anim na kalalakihan ang kanilang hospital. kya aun. dun kasi nakatira si pa. basta, hirap explain. Thank God tlga kc wala nman masama ngyari sa kanila.

i have to prepare na. hndi ko nga alm kung maliligo pa q ulet. bgo kc aq gumawa ng ebn q naligo na q. since di nman aq n2log, hndi na ako maliligo. hahahahahaha. papalit na lang ako ng undies. hehehe.

ciao
GODBLESS US ALL!
i love you so much pa!!
mwahh.
^_^