revelations

i'm sad. oo, malungkot ako. di ko alam kung bakit. namimiss ko ang pagtawa ng malakas. bored ako. i'm feeling kinda low this past few days. siguro kasi wala lang akong ginagawa sa bahay. walang kausap. and my lazy ass is getting bigger & bigger. you know why? coz i just sit & sit & sit. im so freakin tired. napagod ako ng walang ginagawa. siguro im tired of my daily routines. i want to do something different, something crazy maybe. wooshh. c'mon!! siguro masyado lang talaga akong tamad. kaya pati utak ko hindi gumagana. just hope that tomorow will be a different day. im going to my derma tomorrow. i was supposed to go today kaya lang umulan dito kaya tinamad akong umalis. just stayed at home. update my blog. watch the t.v. i watched charmed early this afternoon. studio 23 have this marathon from 3pm up to 6pm (ata?!). i was sooo happy. hindi talaga maalis ung attention ko dun. tas kanina first time ko nakapanood ng grey's anatomy. infairness, i like it. hahahaha. basta, gusto ko siya. at bukas makakapanood ulet ako ng charmed at grey's anatomy. yehey!!! *applause* ^_^

a funny story: i just finished eating my lunch. one of our cats entered the house, it's scrat. i was kinda observing him. everything that he's been doing. he slept, he woke up and do some stretching, he walked around the house, go to the bathroom to drink some water, slept again and woke up. he sat down w/ his cute eyes staring at our dining table, as if his planning to check whats for lunch. suddenly i asked him a question: "ming, hindi ka ba nabbored sa mga ginagawa mo, paulit-ulit lang kasi eh." to my surprise, he stared at me and answered my question w/ a very soft, "meow". then he slept again. isn't it weird???!!

i'm bad. really iam bad. i'm a bad daughter. it's my fathers bday tomorrow. i forgot about it. major amnesia na to. i was using the computer last nyt. my mom was talking to my cousin at the phone. suddenly i heard her saying: "tatawagan ko pa ng si uncle sam mo sa friday. birthday na niya. di man lang ako nakabili ng card." OMG! nanlaki ung mata ko. Boom!! bakit di ko naaalala un. hindi ko alam kung may memory gap lang ba talaga ako, or what!! it never happened in my entire life na nakalimutan ko yung bday ni papa. i was always the one reminding mama&kuya that it's papa's bday and that we should buy him a bday card. but this year was different. i was so shocked that i really forgot about it. it's kinda weird. che. you're bad! boohoo!! hindi ako makaisip ng dahilan kung bakit ko siya nakalimutan. o baka naman kasi hindi mo lang talaga inisip at inalala.

pa, texted me. they're on their way na to manila. yeheyyy!!! hindi ko siya nareplayan, wla na kasi akong load eh. but i already asked my mom, if she could give me and she said yes. sweeettt!! i'm gonna call him later before i go to sleep. i miss that freakin guy soo much. hahahaha! i miss his voice. i want to hug him tight. i miss pa. i miss being with him. i cant wait to see him. and i cant wait to hear his stories, his super witty stories. i miss his laugh. hahahahahahahahaha. to sum it all. i just really miss jermer cruz. im happy coz his coming home. and im happy that their trip to Bicol is succesful. Thank You Lord. sorry guys if i keep on mentioning jermer. forgive me, i just miss him. nagtataka nga ako eh. lately kasi parang masyado akong nag-ccrave kay pa. hahaha. ginawang pagkain c pa. what i mean is, i always wanted to be with him. alam ko na hindi pwede yung ganun. magiging boring na kasi eh. and ayaw ko naman na mangyari yun ganun sa amin. yung tipong maumay na kami sa isa' isa. gusto ko pa rin yung feeling na namimiss namin yung isa't isa. kaya okay na rin yung ganito. basta wag lang super tagal. hay! i'll stop it na. i'll control my emotion and my cravings for pa. hahahahaha. ang sagwa pakinggan.

i love you pa.
Godbless.