mga lihim na pagnanasa

gusto ko ng ice cream. pampalamig ng mainit na ulo. gusto ko ng kwek kwek. gusto kong libutin ang bawat sulok ng maynila, pati yung bagong bukas na under ground water adventure ek ek nila dun. madaming isda dun na hindi ko pa nakikita sa tana ng buhay ko. sabi ni kim lilibutin daw namin ang buong ermita at mag ffoodtrip lang. aprub ako dun. masaya yun. para ka lang bata na gustong bilhin lahat ng makikita mong pagkain sa daan. gusto ko ng pasta at pizza. nakakagutom. ang sarap nun lalo na yung amoy ng bell pepper. tapos yung pasta ko, lalagyan ko ng madaming madaming CHEESE. hay!! gusto ko magpunta ng greenhills at manuod ng sine dun. hindi pa kasi ako nakakanuod ng cine dun. ang jologs. pero siguro parehas lang din naman yun ng itsura sa ibang sinehan. gusto ko lang, para masabi lang na nakapanuod na ko dun. gusto ko ng cinnamon. ang bango at ang sarap. gusto ko mag starbucks. kahit kelan kasi hindi ko pa nabibili ang sarili ko ng kahit ano sa starbucks. lagi na lang ako nililibre. i-treat ko naman yung sarili ko minsan. pag nagkapera ako, isa yun sa mga una kong gagawin. gusto ko ng siomai at siopao. lumalabas na naman ang dugong intsik ko. paborito ko kasi yun e. kahit isang ligo na yun lang ang ulam ko, solve na ako. basta, iba't ibang clase lang ng luto ah. gusto ko ng spareribs sa LE CHING. chinese restaurant yun. matagal na din akong hindi nakakakain dun. d best dun. lahat ng chinese food dun masarap. gusto ko ng coke float tska hot fudge sa jolibee. gusto ko din ng doughnut at isang hot choco. mainit yun sa tiyan, tamang tama sa medyo malamig na panahon ngayon. gusto ko yung panahon ngayon. sana lagi na lang ganito, para masarap matulog sa gabi. mas masarap nga lang pag may kayakap ko. oooppppsss!!! gusto ko mag dvd marathon. saka ko na lang gagawin yan pag tapos na lahat ng activity sa school.

hay!! madami pa akong gusto. hindi ko na lang maisip yung. basta alam ko marami pa talaga sila. gusto mo ba sumama sa kin??

i love you pa. Godbless.

almost there

final exam is over. im crossing my fingers for a good result. hahahahaha. i wasn't able to study kasi for that day because it was also our defense for our nursing research. tsk. tsk. defense done. woohoo!! we passed. it feels good. so good. sleepless nights and revision days are over. yey!! tapos na din ang revalida. at pasado ako. sayang lang talaga kasi late ako. hahahaha. i guess halos lahat naman pumasa e. duty days has also ended. the next time na magduduty ako, staff nurse na ako. hahahahha. hindi ko pa din ma-imagin. comprehensive exam na lang iniintay namin. and as of the moment puro small group discussion and in house review na lang ginagawa namin sa school. pero syempre may mga exceptions din. may iba kasi na hindi pa tapos sa lahat ng mga bagay na nabangit ko dito. hehe. tulad nung grupo nila pa, they're not yet done with their defense. i will be praying for them. sana maging okay lahat. btw, nakuha ko na din pala yung toga ko. hahaha. ang saya. iningit ko nga si kuya e. sabay kasi kami ggraduate this year. e yung sa kanila, wala pa hanggang nagyon. mtagal pa yata sa kanila e. hehe. and nasukatan na din pala ako ng gala for our pinning ceremony. hay!! ang bilis. almost there na kami. malapit na kami sa finish line. yes!!! praying for the best. God will provide us with good things. yey!!

send off party ng IN bukas. yehey!!! pinapaalis na nila kami. hahahaha. joke!! punta ang buong grupo. exciting to. hahaha. hope that it would be fun and be a memorable one. hehe. host si pa bukas.

i love you pa. Godbless.

invincible

i want my feelings to be indestructible. hahahahaha. paano ko ba i-eexplain. masyado kasi akong fragile e. kapag masaya, masaya tlaga. at kapag malungkot, sobrang malungkot talaga. mabilis ako maapektuhan ng mga bagay na nangyayari sa paligid ko. akala ko dati mas inuuna ko yung feelings ng ibangg tao kaysa feelings ko. pero hindi din pala. madalas selfish din pala ako. im waiting for the day na hindi na ako magiging selfish. na matutunan kong tignan yung both sides ng pangyayari. na hindi lang yung pain inflicted sa akin yung iintindihin ko. na mas maging forgiving pa ako sa mga tao. tsaka wag na masyado maging emo at nega. hahahaha.

i love you pa.
Godbless.

two and three months

you have to expect absence at some point, but that doesn't mean an end. all you have to do is to wait for a time, give the person space. because true love is proved when a person has seen the best people in the world, but still turns back to where you are. reaches for your hand, and chooses you above world's best.

i love you pa.
Godbless.

~i pray that God will grant my wish~

she loves him, but what if......

......he deserve someone else, someone better. someone who would care for him the way he wanted to. who would know what to do whenever he had a bad day. someone who can make his heart smile. who can see the pain behind those smiles. a person who is as passionate as he is, and as outgoing as him. she will do evrything just to make him feel love. she knows how to carry herself whenever she's with him. the one who can put out the best in him. a person who can get along with his friends. and someone who he can have a good conversation with. sometimes she ask herself why is she doing this things to the boy. why is she constantly hurting him. now, she's in this situation where she is so confuse. she thinks the boy deserve someone better. but she also knows that he is the only one that she'd ever wanted.

i love you pa. Godbless.

please, tell me what to do?

sabi niya sa sarili niya, tama na daw. dumating siya sa punto na iniisip niya kung tama pa ba to. kasi patuloy ka lang daw niyang nasasaktan sa mga bagay na ginagawa niya. mali. sa mga bagay pala na hindi niya nagagawa o inaasahan mong gawin niya. hindi rin naman niya maintindihan kung bakit niya yun nagagawa sayo e. sa maniwala ka't hindi, di niya yun sinasadyang dawin sayo. ang gusto lang naman niya ipakita kung gaano ka kahalaga e. hindi siya napapagod na mahalin ka. napapagod siya sa sarili niya. kasi paulit-ulit ka na lang niyang nabibigo. minsan naisip niya na sana maging ibang tao na lang siya. sana napapatawa ka din niya tulad ng iba. nagiging makabuluhan ang bawat paguusap tulad ng pakikipagusap mo sa ibang tao. alam naman niya talaga na sa simula't simula pa lang marami na kayong pagkakaiba. pero sinunod pa rin niya kung ano yung nararamdaman niya. sinubukan niyang baguhin kung ano ung panget, kaya lang may mga bagay na hanggang ngayon hirap pa rin siyang baguhin, o iimprove. hindi na rin kasi niya alam kung ano pa yung gagagwin e. sa isang banda, nailang siya bigla sayo kasi hindi na niya alam kung paano makikitungo sayo. na para bang kapag magkikita kayo o magkasama kayo hindi na niya alam kung ano ung tamang kilos na gagawin niya. hindi na nagiging natural. na dapat bago kayo magkita planado na niya lahat ng kilos na gagawin niya. simula sa paglalakad, sa pagtawa, sa mga bagay na ikkwento, hanggang sa bawat salitang lalabas sa bibig niya. naguguluhan siya e. natatakot na siya na may gawing mali na magiging dahilan ng pagkalungkot mo. please, sabihin mo na lang kung ano ba yung gusto mong gawin niya. ano ba yung gusto mo? ano ba yung dapat kong gawin. ayaw na niyang saktan ka. hindi naman daw niya minamasama ang bawat bagay na pinupuna mo. siguro nga masakit daw sa umpisa. pero alam mo namang handa niyang baguhin kung ano man yun. sana wag mo lang siya ikumpara sa ibang tao. kasi masakit yun para sa kanya. ikaw kasi yung taong inaasahan niyang tatanggap sa kanya e. nakakalungkot kasi isipin na minsan hindi ka sapat para sa isang taong mahalaga sayo. na iba pala yung inaakala mo sa tatoong nangyayari. sabihin mo lang sa kanya kung ano yung dapat niyang gawin.

i lvoe you pa. Godbless.

who is me?

PERSONALITY TEST

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

The Real You

Here is the analysis:

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

4. Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

5. Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.

What's your personality love style?

Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

What type of personality do you have?

Here is the analysis: Bright and Cheerful

You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

What does being a friend really mean to you?

You value your friendships: 70%

You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

Are You Nosy?

Nosy Level: 50%

You may seem to be a nosy person to some people, but actually you are quite a serious person who's not at all interested in gossip. You just like to know what's going on around you. It's a natural interest and you can get offended when people tell you they think you're a sticky-beak.

Jealousy Test

Jealousy Level: 50%

You harbor hidden feelings of jealousy

You easily get jealous of other people, but you manage to control your expressions and emotions. For instance, when a close friend tells you that she has met the man of her dreams, you might sincerely say to her "Congratulations!", but what you're really thinking is "You're so lucky! Why can't I be you?"

Who is your dream guy?

Here is the analysis:

He is wild and adventurous. His path is often against the world. He does what he wants when he feels like. His type of girl is quite like him, independent and wise. If you love freedom and willing to risk, go for this guy.

How you control your husband, who will lead the family and who will be led?

You tend to adopt traditional roles of a fine woman. You listen to what your husband tell you attentively and enjoy being guided and led by him.

How deep is your love?

Depth: 73%

You have him in a corner of your heart. Don't lie to yourself; he's your special guy. Take good care of your heart. You still have a long way to go. Always remember that love has two edges. Being apart for a while might be a good chance to proof his love to you.

The Bottle

What if your boyfriend goes out with another girl?

You are like most others who take the middle track. Although you won't get over-worried, you are not too optimistic either. You overcome bad times after a while and patience will bring you happiness.

How well will you survive in this wild world?

Here is the analysis:

You always judge things by your feelings. You can minimize your mistakes by opening your mind through discussions with others. You might be surprised to find out something you never thought about.

The Thing You Forgot

Here is the analysis:

Selecting this item means you understand things around you well. However, when you want to prove that you are right, you are likely to insist with the words "yes, yes, yes", but don't offer further explanation.

The House

Here is the analysis:

Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person.

You love your house and family. You are a gifted artist as well. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You always have plans on your mind. This might cause a lot of stress if things don't go the way you expect. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.

You are not a romantic person by nature. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

i love you pa. Godbless.

uncoded

i can't figure out the feeling that i am feeling right now. na at one point hindi mo na lang alam kung ano yung nararamdaman mo or gusto mong maramdaman. na kulang na lang hilingin mo na pag gising mo isang araw wala ka ng maalala. para hindi mo na din maisip yun tapos hindi ka na din maguguluhan pa. sana nga ganun na lang kadali yun e. para hindi ako nahihirapan, tapos hindi ako nasasaktan, at hindi din ako nakakasakit ng iba. nakakapagod kasi e. lalo na kapag sarili mo yung kalaban mo. hindi ko alam kung masyado lang ba akong nag-oover react sa mga nangyayari. i am making things so complicated dahil sa mga nararamdaman ko. pero ganun kasi talaga ako e. wala na akong magagawa kung masyado akong emotional. isa yun sa mga bagay na matagal ko ng binabago sa sarili ko, pero hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin nagagawa.

i love you pa. Godbless.